Start of my lonely lonely nights...

Before i start on, i have a few really really late updates which happened like 2 weeks ago? Erm... I finally found time to blog abt it la can anot?

Remember i was saying how boring it is and that there's nothing to blog abt at all 2 sundays ago? My sister made something happen so i can blog abt it.

She got into an accident which made the family Toyota Vios look like this....

For some retards out there, of cause my sister didn't really do it intentionally so that i can blog la! And obviously it wasn't her fault! Please don't be so idiotic.

She damn poor thing lor. Was all alone when the thing happened. Luckily, there was a guy who was willing to be her witness.

My sister was already halfway into the carpark and people who are in their parking lots should let the car go 1st before coming out from their lot right?

Chee bye lorry driver saw the car coming still insist coming out from the lot. You think your fucking lorry very small izzit?

Guess what was the injury done to the lorry?

Only 1 of the fucking headlight smashed lor. Fucker still got the cheek to get out of the car and shout at my sister trying to scare her and make it machiam her fault like that.

Damn bastard sia! Next time, pick somebody your own size. Scaring little gals is just proving that you are being a fucking sissy!

On the same night, i had a quarrel with deardear abt his stupid parents again. I really fucking hate them!

I was so angry i turned around to walk away but i didn't see the drain behind me. I manage to escape dropping into the drain but not quickly enough to prevent myself from falling.

I fell on both knees and slide and i was wearing 3 quarters, so there was no protection at all.

Ouch!

Fucking pain! This is what happened to my knee after that...

The next time we quarrel again, i'll make sure that he is the 1 to fall on his knees and taste my pain.

Do you guys remember the family that died in the car crash with only the little baby girl that survived?

The deceased wake happened to be at the church i'm going so i went to pay my respects.

Such poor things. Even through the heavy makeup, i can still see the stitches on the little boy's forehead.

If he were given the chance to grow up, he would be a very handsome man. I couldn't help but cried at the wake.

On the following week, khai's grandfather passed away. We went to the funeral. It must be such a pain for him. I can still remember the day my grandfather passed away.

Life is so small and fragile. Just a snap and you are gone. Sometimes i think to myself at night. When will it be my turn?

Will i be afraid when the time comes? I admit that at times, i do kinda fear death but God will be there for me so i must be brave.

Deardear just left for Taiwan last night to a training programme for 3 weeks and i am oh so lonely.

Lucky my dad came back on the night he left so it's not so bad for me. But it's just 1 week before he goes back to Indonesia.

What will i do for the remaining 2 weeks? I'm afraid of the dark especially when i'm all alone.

I have to face his parents alone for 3 whole weeks. What a torture! Somebody just kill me please!

Recently i'm addicted and totally obsessed with a song called Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis.

An extremely good 'unseen' friend of mine said i'm sadist. I didn't know what he meant initially.

I fell in love with the song when i 1st heard it during work on 95FM. The music just attracted my attention. It was so mystical and haunting.

I went all way out to search for the song and now i know why he said i'm sadist. Tell me if i'm really sadist after reading. Heres the lyrics...

Closed off from love

I didn’t need the pain

Once or twice was enough

And it was all in vain

Time starts to pass

Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened

For the very first time with you

My heart melts into the ground

Found something true

And everyone’s looking round

Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don’t know the truth

My heart’s crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear

But they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears

Try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that the goal

Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater

Than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness

I see your face

Yet everyone around me

Thinks that I’m going crazy,

maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don’t know the truth

My heart’s crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me

Oh they find it hard to believe

I’ll be wearing these scars

For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don’t know the truth

My heart’s crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding-

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

Anyway, i've set up a new guestbook! The old ones gone as the server is no longer serving. Hahaha! I don't know what i'm talking abt anymore.

All i know is better sign my bloody guestbook you freaks out there especially those that had posted in the old one before.

Please please please sign it. I'm begging you!!! Please la!