Confused...

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time. Don't feel like blogging at all.

Might be ignoring this blog for an even longer period of time till i get my things settled.

Alot is going through my mind and i'm having a hell lot of mixed emotions right now. I feel sad, angry, dejected and confused.

I'm at the point of breaking out into tears soon. I'm really just a simple girl who just wants to be happy. Why do i have to suffer all this mental torture?

I've been thinking of doing something but i'm still holding back. I don't know what is wrong with me.

I only know that things are gonna turn very ugly but that's the only way i can bring peace to myself.

I'm not superwoman. I'm human and i have feelings. People just keep doing things to hurt me. I keep seeing things that i don't wanna see.

I don't wanna fall back into darkness again but here i am struggling for my life and my own happiness all by myself.

There's no one to help me. All alone by myself. I know i need to be strong and i've struggled through all kinds of shit.

Still, there will be times where i will go weak and start thinking all sorts of nonsense. Suffering mental stress which is not at all healthy for me.

I need to take action for my own future and my own happiness.

But nobody understands me. Where is all the support and encouragement i need?

I really don't wanna suffer anymore. I'm so tired of putting up a strong front when i'm feeling weak.

Who is there to help me? Who can help me?